'I will never quit'. For a very long time that has been been my belief, that simple phrase is what has kept me going on.. The belief that quitting was never an option has always gotten me through the toughest of times. But today I say, I quit. I quit something that for a very long time I thought I was good at.. The past 2 years have proven to me that despite what I thought that I had talent, despite my belief in myself.. I am nothing, I am useless. People against whom I excelled, now sit in positions that were supposed to be mine. Fate yet again has proven to be the victor.. I can not change my fate, the fate of a failure.. They say it is better sometimes to just quit, well I quit. Perhaps this was never meant to be for me... I will now look for my fortune elsewhere.. But this feeling of failure threatens to overwhelm me.. I hope I have the strength to keep it at bay. There is no silver lining any more, only the dark of the clouds. And I will accept the dark like I have always have.
